Fight for a Job I Love

Fight for a Job I Love

Never in my life have I been told I didn’t get the job after I had been basically guaranteed it.  Never has my medical history or medications been an issue.  I work in EMS, and I’m good at it.  I love to help people and work with patients.  I know how to make someone feel better when they are experiencing one of the scariest times of their lives.  Never did I think that I would not be able to work in the field I was put on this earth to be a part of. 

But sometimes life has a way of kicking you when you’re down, and turning you in a different direction.  God knows it’s happened to me more then once. Every time I get kicked I somehow manage to pick myself up and start over.  I don’t know how that this point because if I was humpty dumpty there would just be to many tiny pieces to try and put back together again.  But there is also an ancient Chinese practice that says when something is broken you do not throw it away as though it no longer has value, you mend it with gold, and make it better.  So I guess I can also be seen to be made of mostly gold from the number of times I have been mended.  

Today after feeling like there was no way I could pick myself up again I had a few things happen that renewed my strength in the fight I have to live my life fully and help others to do the same.  

The first thing was having a Lidocaine infusion this morning and even if the effects last only a few hours, I got the chance to remember what it feels like to live without pain.  I was so happy I could have cried because I didn’t realize how much pain I had been carrying around with me for so long, and how heavy it had gotten.  I smiled and it felt good, I stretched and nothing hurt, I napped and didn’t wake up with something in pain.  So I am grateful for this day because it reminded me I still have some fight left in me.  

The second thing that happened was I came across a young woman, deaf since the age of 18 from a connective tissue disorder, competing in a singing competition of all things.  As I watched her video I could feel the hairs all over my body stand up.  She sang beautifully on stage barefoot to feel the vibrations from the bass to keep time, and took ques from her interpreter down by the judges.   This is someone who gave up on something she loved for many years and then somehow found the strength and determination to make it work and reclaim the love she had lost so long ago.  I decided right then that this would be the video I would watch the next time I got kicked, the next time someone told me I couldn’t or wasn’t able to.  Because this girl is living proof of living life without limits!

Watch this girl and know you can do anything!

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